lol... here's a poem for all to enjoy... sort of explain my feelings yesterdae at the esplanade... done by my fav. teacher, mr koh. found in kutlama 2004.
Letters Night
laid pressed between pages of diary,
letters you wrote for me.
i touched your hand within these notes today,
not knowing just why. words
penned, speaking familiar conversations,
echoed in laughter and ease.
a call to believe
promises we once held,
with open hands.
i didn't forget the times we spent;
tea-breaks in canteen, simple instrumentals on cds
making breakfast with campbells and cheese,
talking till 3 in the morning.
reaching out,
grasping on bits of future uncertain;edges
of inspiration we sketched on skies
drifting, pencilled in wind-
starred sihouette trees. we once wished
like children
one october night.
i remember
how little beginnings come framed
in sunshine and moonlight-
they flicker on like quasars
in the late evening sky.
now,
your letter writes and empty silence
for i only hear my voice;
seeking places, sheltered
from what i held inside.
you cared enough to let me know-
in the end, that was all i sought,
after having held only fragments
of your memory
in my hands...
having remembered our beginnings
and these waking moments of our end,
ruth came hidden in my honesty
there's so much i still try
to carry through.
i guess you never knew,
even while i loved you.
