fdc nightmare is back...

can't believe that i've slacken so much that i can't even tahan the "choo" ippt training like old times... maybe really too long never exercise le (after all it is quite difficult to resist the temptation from "merah shopping centre" and changi v) but somehow still cannot grow fat despite the consistent effort...

*muscles aching all over my body*

so probably skipping the swim later... off with dotA-ing (once again, as usual).

feels kinda weird that i haven't been writing for so long... makes me realli wonder whether my life is indeed that meaningless. but did something different today so just wanna type it here...

our PC going to go off to shift 2 le... a bit sad though cos he is realli one of the best PCs left around (veri easy to get offs from him). his replacement seems to be one of the new PCs that just passed out from ocs, probably from our batch one ba. dunno wat they are like but i can guess there cannot be compared with our current one...

as such, today is also our last standby together as a shift (though most of the GOHs were not present) but nevertheless we quite enjoyed our time at sentosa. playing soccer and seeing at things we all enjoy seeing. but in the end most ppl all smoke out halfway, so can feel that our PC was a bit disappointed. dunno how come these ppl like that also. our PC did so much for us but they can't even like sense it lor... haiz...

went play pool after that cos there wasn't many ppl left and nuthin much to do also. school day ba. left siloso beach in the mid afternoon and went slack around, eating minced meat noodles for a stall in a shopping centre in doby ghaut (can't remember the shop name but the noodles quite good sia)... most of the ppl playing pool all pro. must have been gaining quite a lot of experience point from playing billards. so in the end kenna thrashed like nobody business. too noob le ba...

that's about all for now... going swimming soon... it's back to camp day tmr... hurray (in a veri dispirited mood)...

is it true that people will change?

been feeling that the people around me have started to change... or is it just me? that my view of ppl have become much more critical and realistic? i dunno...

it is becoming quite a hassle to think of things to write for the blog le. can't pinpoint the apparent reason for this change of attitude too... maybe becos i'm quite sick and tired to repeating the same old monotonous and endless cycle of watching vcds in camp to sleeping during standbys to slacking and rotting at home when i dismount.

need some fun and thrill in my life... after all i finally understood that my youth is being drained away slowly, bit by bit from the army lifestyle... gonna find more things to do before i rot to death from both physical slacking and also mental degrading...

as such, i doubt there will be less recent posts here. probably write when i have an inspiration to write or when i do something that is less "routine". however will still be visiting this blog often to check on the "almost dead" tagboard. which is another reason why i find this blogging more and more of a "cycle" too. arghhh...

somehow i have this bad feeling that my english is de-proving at a accelerating rate... need to read up more books again... classical greek mythology here i come...

date. 120306
time. 2100hrs
goal. met my target of 1,000,000 nps from the neopian stock market...
mood. extremely joyful...


went monkey-feeding at upp thomson just now... those sneaky fellas stole all the bananas from us... lol.

finally back from camp... sometimes i do really wish that there was enough ppl to share the burden of all the extra duty slots... super shacked by the fact that i spent more than half the time on duty (approximately 30++hrs for the past 2 days...) gonna faint soon i guess... arghhh help needed over here...

went back to camp immediately after meeting with xia, lin, zq and edwin for lin's belated birthday celebration (kinda late though, but still there is an effort made) a big pity that mild is overseas for internship? i dun really noe... but all i noe is that i was almost late to report back to camp cos there was a traffic jam at changi v there...

anyway, we went for some buffet at cineleisure, wasn't really sure wat's the name of that shop (is it yuki yaki or yaki yuki?)... but we had quite a lot of fun there playing with ice cream on wad i called the cold plate (duh)... pardon me but i'm sort of a mountain tortoise so i dun really noe wad that thingy really is... gave her the present (9-1 hair styling set) and a pretty white daisy (fresh from the fridge)... and xia, if u got see this, that is not ur idea totally k? i also got help to choose the flower ok? lol...

went back to camp and did my duty straightaway since there was really not enough ppl and we need to train the new ASLCs... tough time for us... so most of us were pretty fatigued in the end... some more the next day the rest need to go for drill practice... shift 4 wasn't there to help cos they were out doing marshalling that morning... they more worst than us cos, that time after we took over, their vehicle broke down halfway and couldn't return back to camp till 12 plus midnight and then they had to do their job at 7 the next morning...

yesterday the ASLCs finally completed their OJT... so we were quite happy (most of them proved to be promising new specs)... lol... evil plans up my sleeves when they come to merah the next time...

that's all for now... need to rush to boon lay to meet wl to go to the ntu open house... maybe meet some old classmates there also...

back from HOOTERS for our FDS anniversary... didn't expect much fun and activity from all these army events (wanted veri to smoke out from this thingy halfway but couldn't)...
located in clarke quay, this shophouse looks like the typical English pubs all along the s'pore river... eat quite a lot since it's all part of the buffet... so ended staying till the whole lucky draw is over and CO allowed us all to leave...

veri tired today sia... not enough sleep for the past few days le... cos busy doing extra duties as well as training the new batch of specs for OJT... tmr need to book in at night cos of shortage of ppl... so gonna sleep soon...

(pls note. the post below will be extremely wad i called to be extremely "kimcheng". do spend some time to ponder over it)

"It is easy to forget that it was dreams that led you to where you are now" - Bill Beham

seems like i'm at this crossroad of my life journey once again. wasn't very sure whether the path that is laid out in front of me is the one i'm destined to follow. or perhaps i dun even wan to follow wad was supposedly laid out (dictated by others). i wan to create my own path, though it may be an ardous travel, it may prove to be much more fruitful and meaningful. but again, i'm quite scared to take that first step cos i noe, this veri first step is perhaps the most difficult of all.

it is easy to wan to forget all my lofty ambitions and dreams and not have the courage to step out into the unkown territories for the world ahead is a dark, dark place (though i wish to cheat myself that it is all part of my childish fairytale world). there are always thoughts of giving up and remain in that comfort zone which i have found familiarity, solace and confidence. but another part always wishes to venture more, to know more about anything and everything.

i'm veri confused now. which is the "correct" path that i should be heading towards?

perhaps i need more time to think it over again (maybe 1 year is indeed not enough...)

many thoughts are running in my head, arghh... philosophical stuff exploding inside my mind... maybe i can go write a thesis for it... lol (have this tingling feeling this pathetic joke of mine is not calming me down at all)

movie marathon at merah yesterdae. was quite bored in camp since there wasn't anything new for us to do then. so went out to rent some vcds to watch and accidentally spent the next 12 hours watching a whole pile of movies. started about 12 in the afternoon and sat in front of the tv, totally focused on the movie marathon.

most of the movies were quite waad i called "cheapo" movies, meaning that it isn't quite worthwhile spending the money and also time (though we had plenty of it then)... mixture of korean and english films... started with a local film about some vietnamese bride issue, then followed by the korean film "marrying the mafia", "flightplan", "volcano high", "S diary", "Curse of lola"and finally "the heirloom"... cheapo shows (we calculated it to be 80c per movie per pax). lol...

lin's birthday is tmr, but somehow there doesn't seem to be any plans for celebration...haiz...