(pls note. the post below will be extremely wad i called to be extremely "kimcheng". do spend some time to ponder over it)

"It is easy to forget that it was dreams that led you to where you are now" - Bill Beham

seems like i'm at this crossroad of my life journey once again. wasn't very sure whether the path that is laid out in front of me is the one i'm destined to follow. or perhaps i dun even wan to follow wad was supposedly laid out (dictated by others). i wan to create my own path, though it may be an ardous travel, it may prove to be much more fruitful and meaningful. but again, i'm quite scared to take that first step cos i noe, this veri first step is perhaps the most difficult of all.

it is easy to wan to forget all my lofty ambitions and dreams and not have the courage to step out into the unkown territories for the world ahead is a dark, dark place (though i wish to cheat myself that it is all part of my childish fairytale world). there are always thoughts of giving up and remain in that comfort zone which i have found familiarity, solace and confidence. but another part always wishes to venture more, to know more about anything and everything.

i'm veri confused now. which is the "correct" path that i should be heading towards?

perhaps i need more time to think it over again (maybe 1 year is indeed not enough...)

many thoughts are running in my head, arghh... philosophical stuff exploding inside my mind... maybe i can go write a thesis for it... lol (have this tingling feeling this pathetic joke of mine is not calming me down at all)