feeling wobbly all over... must be getting sick le ba... legs like got no energy to move like that lor... too tired to do anything else (but somehow not having fever lor)... can't really remember how long i slept yesterdae (suffering from fatigue) cos of the veri veri unexpected standby in camp... dunno how many ppl kenna recalled back to camp just because of some stupid accident... then come back le then tell us got nothing can go back lor (wat the **).... in the end (due to veri severe miscommunication) we had our leave cancelled and stayed for standby at AETI... but then go there do nothing also (except for the OC and CO talk) and do the endless vehicle check training (repeatedly) for the last half a year... haiz... too tired to say anymore le la... gtg le... time to rest and eat medicine le...

just came back from a family BBQ at some unknown location (one of the many factories around in the kranji industrial park)... seems like today is the first time i had to type so many posts to tell about the events for the past few days (since i only got chance to use the com once every 2 days)

pretty tired i guess, after so many days of celebrations, guess xmas is comin to end soon too... though there is 12 days and this is just the 1st day only... but i guess everydae there will always be a different experience as compared to others...

long time never really go out with my family memebers le, so this BBQ proves to come in handy at the right moment... had a great time barbecueing all the chicken wings (though i not veri pro in it, but still can eat i hope)... but the best was still mahjong... playing with the pro (my aunts) is veri different when playing with friends lor... but nevertheless had a great time (cos really too long never play le lor)... gtg le... time to sleep early so that i'll be up early tmr morning for something else...

for yesterdae's event at merah...

hmm... booked in at merah, only to realised that i had to spend this year xmas eve with those on duty... the 7 of us had quite a day in camp... since i was asleep most of the time in the morning and afternoon (after the much hectic day at xia's house), i didn't really know wat the activities the rest were up to...

when i woke up, realise that they decided to order pizzas for celebrations... they actually ordered 4 large pizzas when there is just 7 of us (me, kao, daniel, jeremy,boon teck, the long-lost eddie and also our spec kevin)... there is just too much pizzas for us to finish that we ended playing games to finish off the rest of the food as forfeit... forgot how much i ate, but almost puked lor...

waited for the BDO and BOS to leave before we can really begin our celebrations... the BDO (though i really dun wan to comment on him) but he is really ****ed... dunno wat's his name also cos really make our day irritated (almost spoilt the mood for the day)... but i guess he can be good friends with our "beloved" BOS staff mel...

since i was the one on duty during the countdown, i was in charge of waking everyone up... wanted to press the turnout bell (so convenient lor) but i didn't wan to get a veri special xmas present... then Sgt Zai wei called us... thought he wanted to give extra le lor ( couldn't recognize the voice, thought it was PC lor)... but then everything ended up well, quite peacefully...

forgotten to post this when i wrote it on 23 dec...

wad a tiring day, but still managed to sneak out some time rite now to type this post from xia house... finally, after much planning, everything is set and in order (though not exactly that perfect yet)... but nevertheless still acceptable (since there is more ppl coming than expected)... write a short one before i go join the rest to play the forfeit game ( dunno drink up how many cups of those unusual mixture le lor)

these few days been slightly busy and confusing since the conference call between xia, mild and lin yesterdae nite... thought the whole thing will screw up in the end, but the eventual result is quite unexpected (really)... never really expected that more than half the class came...

things we did today...
firstly, me and mild met up at 1600hrs to buy tons of stuff (decorations, food and most impt instant noodles...)
then, waited under mild's house and saw the two cats she told me about
went to xia house to decorate the whole place (pardon for the childish deco, the best out of the worse situation le)
lin came and prepared the snacks... and wait for the rest to arrive...
the rest came... and we started the activities (hmm... can't remember wad i did le lor)
dunno since went we started playing the poker game (dun really know wat the name is but it's very fun, esp. with forfeits of course)
then came the pizza deliveries...
then ended up playing the spilling game (forgot who drank the most in the end lor)
watched vcds throughout the nite... "SAW" and "50 first dates"
before i knew it, it was time to pack up and get ready to book in le... haiz... quite a bad way to end the day...

i guess that's about all... maybe forgot some stuff too (somehow i realise i always seem to have very short term memory...)
merry xmas eve to all :)

whew... been a pretty busy weekend this week, lots of things to do (finally got time to sit down and relax while typing my post rite here at orchard library)... now like waiting for 2030hrs so that i can pass the birthday present to my sergeant before i go back home to rest... did quite a lot of stuff for today ba (technically speaking)...

wasted my thursday going back to camp for the contingency drills lor, cos RSM decided in the last min to clear his leave on that day, so i ended doing not much stuff on that day (except for the rountine duty work)...

fri is much more free, cos penghui was out most of the time in the day (cos his birthday) then i only had chance to meet him to go do something we neglected for a long time (swimming)... didn't really a lot cos we ended up talking about the hitman game (about trying to clear the mission lor)... then met weelun to celebrate penghui 19th birthday... went to play pool at cwp (again) to look for "yang cheng ling" but she wasn't there... wasted...at night went to watch out for meteor showers (informed by my bro in the last min) waited for 2 hrs then could see one...

today even a more busy day cos i met xia and mildred at such a early time slot... i guess the three of us are too tired cos we ended up in a stoning stage... we actually could waste 1.5hrs trying to decide on wat to eat for lunch before we finally got into Ajisen... spend almost 2 hrs eating and talking before we went to take neoprints (planning to do something special with it)... to much surprise we could think of wat to do after that and we ended up in Ya Kun eating toasted bread and chit-chat again... suddenly came to this idea of the xmas sleepover at xia's house on the 23rd... did a lot crazy planning for it, and decided to change location to mac... then there something shocking happened...

we were at mac discussing about the sequence of event for that day when suddenly out of nowhere, an unanticipated thunderstorm crashed towards us... all the drinks and fries flew off the table and the huge tentage next door collapse... the whole place like kenna tsunami like that lor (had a huge shock)... quickly went to seek shelter and see the aftermath of the storm... somehow we managed to escape (slightly drenched) before i went off to find penghui here at this orchard library...

tmr is another busy day (i guess) since i have towake up early to go my grandma's house to help paint the place... so i think the day will be over very soon ba... now looking forward to 23rd for the xmas party (since i'm the planner i'll have lots of things to do this week)...

haiz... thought could enjoy a long break from the army when i start clearing my leave this week, but in the end everythin had to be postponed (to an unconfirmed date)... and why is this so? cos the rsm decided to conduct some vul. test on thurs to prepare us for the security audit that's coming up (unknown date too)...as such, have to come back to do all the contingency drills again...

i think i'm having a writer's block now... can't really think of wad to write for now... been looking through some of my friends blog... then discover got so many photos taken inside... so i uploaded them in my friendster account lor... these photos a bit old ba, but reminds me of many fond memories back in sch... how i wish i could ord the very next min sa...

spend quite some time playing a very old game that i used to play online... neopets is quite a childish game some would say but still very interesting... cos i'm still waiting for penghui to pass me the hit man game... by then i guess i'll have more stuff to do back home again ba... now i guess i'll end here... do some fine-tuning to my blog lor...

couldn't find anything better to do these few days, so decided to stay at home and read books lor... my room got lots of books that i have read repeatedly yet i was never bored by them (dunno why also, good books will never be boring ba)... currently reading a collection of poetry by one of the singaporean poet... one of my A level lit text lor... so can u guess which is it? it's Another Place by Boey (used to calling by his surname)...

still remember all the hard work i put in when i first touched this book during lit class sia... used to think that this is an extremely tough book to understand, but as i read it more, the more it became clearer to me, and the more i grew to like this book... touched on a lot of stuff that still continues to "haunt" me even though i left it on the shelf a year ago... all the themes on existentialism and the singapore pysche, purpose of art...blah blah (words i learnt during lit class re-projecting itself inside my mind now) dunno whether this book got that huge impact on the rest of my classmates or not... so long never see them le... the last time got class gathering but couldn't attend cos something cropped up at the last min so cannot book out that day lor... haiz..

suddenly feel like writing another AP essay (been a long time since i write one le)... dunno why also, maybe army life forces me to reminisce about all these old stuff... maybe if i read more on the impactful poems, i might be inspired to write a new poem again... lol... maybe...

slacking at home abit sian also, like cannot find things to do (still waiting for boon teck to lend me his warcraft game to play)... reading and listening to music sounds like a good combination ba... exp when i'm reading this another place and also listening to corrinne may's songs can bring about more inspiration... more food for thought... gtg le... i can sense a surge of creativity arising...(doing a new collage as decoration in my room later)

bk out again le... finally resume back to the usual schedule... oc promised us a 4 mounting schedule no standby for all the hard work during COC and easthawk so got more time to slack at home and catch some sleep lor... also the time to plan more activities for the day offs to enjoy life...lol

the COC parade is not bad, except for the GOH fall out ba... wad the, GOH standing in the first row fainting lor... so much for being Guard of Honor... guess the rehersal before that is too exhausting le lor... haiz... if not for it, maybe the parade would be better ba (not perfect of course) cos the marching is still not the ultimate zai yet...

must start planning activites for the next 3 weeks le lor... the christmas festival is coming soon again... but too bad the eve cannot book out... clearing leave for the year also, so i guess got even more time to slack... can catch up with the old pals again... neglected them for some time le ba... maybe go swimming also ( need to tan off the sunburnt marks on my neck)... maybe organise mahjong session also ( xia if u see this u'll be overjoyed i guess)... lol

the lesson plan for next year...
- learn driving (top prority)
- brush up on my english (maybe go for speech therapy)
- read more books on pyschology, anthropology
- save up more money for uni sch fees
- meet up with long-forgotten friends
- learn a new language (French? Jap?)
- travel around singapore to look for food (a bit meaningless lor)
- gather more inspiration to start writing another script, short story?
- reflect on my life over the last year...
- others still under consideration...

this is it... the computer back home is finally up and ready for all the future posts on my blog... so happy that it's finally here... almost forget wat is it like to use my own com back home... no more rushing to the library every dismount to use the com, no more trying to bribe my bro with mac meals to pyscho him to let me use his laptop... hurray for me... lol (guess i'm just too happy to say anything else ba)

tmr is COC parade le... so tonite have to sleep early... so guess not much activity for the day ba.. maybe go for a swim, then watch a movie, then go play pool, then maybe play some computer games and watch tv...blah blah blah (just kidding btw)... meeting penguin they all later to play pool... but still have to get back home early to get enough sleep...

resuming back to the normal working hours le... so i guess maybe can get to slack again... lol... gtg le... going cwp now to play pool... be back soon (in a couple of days)...

super tired le... after 4 tough days, exercise easthawk finally over le... now suffering from fatigue cos these few days very busy got a lot of contingency drills to do... the east side got super lots of drills but i missed out on all the fun sia (cos merah nothing much happened also)... today still got rehearsal for COC as usual... very exhausting especially when the weather is so so so hot today... can see mirage lor... haiz... why didn't it rain or have a more cloudy weather... my neck sunburnt like siao lor (i guess the rest of us also the same ba)... going to book in to camp tmr morning cos tmr is a full dress rehearsal (full day one also) so i guess i'll most probably faint soon... arghhh... guess i have to make it short so that i got ample time to sleep (not enough sleep the last few days due to all the turnouts lor)... so i guess i'll end here... the interesting stuff about the exercise easthawk some other day then post it lor... bye for now... z Z z

rushing for time here... now only got a few hrs to spare before i make my way back to camp and get confined for the next 2 weeks... the reason? cos got a lot of activities to do these 2 weeks including 2 major ones... like the base exercise as well as the COC parade... had rehearsals like almost everyday lor... now suffering from fatigue too... good thing got 1 day to rest but still have to continue to do duty and drills also when i get back...

finally got a new com le... so this means i can go use the interent soon (after i find a way to use it without a modem...lol) cos somehow this com i bought doesn't seem to include a modem... so i guess have to sign up for my existing broadband plan to get a new one to use... so till then, i'll still be missing in action until the day i popped up on msn and give everyone a surprise...

though got a new com without internet, i managed to find something interesting to do... i went through all mysec sch yearbooks and i realise that a lot have changed since then (ppl u all got chance muz try also) seeing all these old pictures brings back old memories that i often hope to remember... thus got this new blog skin specially for it... also about time to insert 1 song into it (if i managed to find out how to use it first)... till then bye... time to rush back home le...

now writing this post straight from zhiqin's house (which i tried so hard trying to convince him to let me come over)... so i guess i'll have to make this a short one... now listening to jay's new song, guess about time for me to buy his cd soon (after i finish listening to all of the songs inside). nuthin much happened recently... maybe perhaps for the sudden outbursts of sore eyes sydrome in my camp (most probably caused by me cos somehow i got it first)... as such no one to do duty in camp lor (have to do extra)

looks like this sore eye thingy is causing a lot of trouble for my family (but i wasn't the first one to get it) it started from my brother ba... then somehow i kenna also. now even my sis also got le... then in camp i accidentally pass it to kenneth kao (who got 3 days attend C) then have shortage of manpower. heard recently that the other kenneth also kenna sore eye also (maybe caused by me, maybe not ba) i dunno for sure... maybe i also need to get attend C too so that i dun pass it to anyone else lor...

back from camp again... dunno why suddenly veri confused again... cos i heard news that i'll be posted out again very soon. but the destination is different this time. somehow the new camp is in fact further (which is weird) cos the place veri inaccessible lor (paya lebar air base). with that, comes a lot of sadness and disappointment lor, cos it quite hard for ppl like to adapt to a new environment when i have just began to grow accustomed with the guys in camp. haiz... there goes all the hard work for the last 3 mths lor... though it is not confirmed yet till the PC tells me, i also cannot find anymore motivation to do duty liao lor. the mere thought is driving me crazy liao lor...

haiz... today dismount also no mood to do anything. cos really sad mood sia. have to find something to lift my spirits for now (maybe go buy a new com later?) dunno also lor. the last mount couldn't find anything to do again. maybe except for the storybook that made me completely mesmerized. the book is called "the vampire lestat". one of the chronicles of the vampires stories i bought while i was studying gothic in jc. didn't have the chance to read it then cos it has a lot of words but when i started reading it, i couldn't stop. dunno what is so attractive but somehow i was totally engrossed in it. maybe cos that time really too bored or the book is just very good lor.

tmr have to go back camp to draw my No. 3 lor for the COC parade that is coming soon. dunno why kenna the drills thingy again lor. a bit too late liao cos i no more enthusiam le. starting to clear leave also le lor... so i guess i'll have a lot of free time again during november to rest and relax lor. so time for me start aking ppl out again le( since no one wan to ask me). that's all.

new post again... somehow like getting sick of typing in my blog le (but still have too cos it's allows me to improve and maintain on my rusty english)... this off day as usual got no activity (outdoor activity i mean) cos i manage to find some indoor stuff to do. today i realise i still have a lot of books i haven read since i bought them (cos most books are used from book vouchers one). so i decided to spend this mount doing something i haven been doing...reading.

spend some time the last dismount learning magic tricks from a unprofessional magician (my younger brother). he pro at these kind of things liao lor... forget he since when starting to learn liao lor (dunno his purpose of learning also). maybe learn to chio some girl he like? i dunno...me? i learn for curiosity sake ba... learn more is better than nothing lor...

dunno whether u all believe in fate this kind of superstitious stuff or not cos i do. cannot explain why but somehow i feel attracted to horoscope, tarots these kind of stuff... somehow something miraculous happened... the fortunes i have to doing always seem to point to the same result. unexplainable lor... haiz... somethings are just beyond comprehension. dunno to really believe it or not lor.somehow i feel it is really impt to trust it. haiz... got time then see how lor... if not can ask kenneth kao lor cos i keep on telling him about this girl i like for a long time...

haiz... life is so full of mysteries lor. maybe someday i'll understand it... if not i guess i have to continue searching for some meaning in my life. till next time... gtg le. time to learn some more new magic tricks...

hmm... no inspiration to write for today, cos army life really very boring lor
(monotonous lifestyle i mean)... dunno wad to say about it also , cos if i write anything wrong, i might just be one of those ppl that were kenna caught for writing about sensitive issues... esp regarding national security or wad lor... cos u'll never know whether there will be a MP who happens to be a blogger too...

hmm... though i get to book out quite often now, just can't seem to find anything to do also lor... cos when u have too much free time, the first thing u'll do will be to catch up with old friends (which i had already did)... then find things to slack about (which i can't think of any yet) cos i almost watch finish all the nice movies available for now (the most common activity around)...

hmm... the last dismount met up with my old pals again.. first time all of us could gather together. also the first time we went to watch a movie together (after so long). also the first M18 movie i watched also... got so many first times lor... maybe i'll get to try new stuff the next few dismounts ba...

haiz... dunno how long never visit this place le...been pretty busy even since my OJT ended, busy finding stuff to do that i haven't been doing since my course started, many many wishes to be fulfiled during this period. now finally managed to find time to type a new post into my blog.

hmm... changed to a new camp again, but still under the control of changi air base. hmm... same duties as before but now more autonomy there at the new camp. no longer as regimental as the times i had during OJT or FDC. here basically everyday do the same thing over and over again. got spare time then go doing running or practice drills lor.

lots of things happened during this last week, cos i decided to insert some life into my monotonous lifestyle. thus decided to go out during my off-days. and of course still exercise regularly cos it's been really hard training to be fit, dun wan to grow fat and flabby during my army life. thus go swimming and running lor. watch movies, go shopping, and eat a lot these few to enjoy myself after all the tough times are over.

hmm... the last mount, kenna selected for Guard of Honour for NDP next year but in the end kicked out ( so much for being too happy intially) cos the RSM claimed that i was too short. (??)
too bad liao lor. but something strange happened lor. i was selected for the RP driver course lor. it's good to be able to learn new skills but i'm just quite unimpressed cos i kenna the course because the guy going for the course happens to be tall enough to go into GOH. haiz... but dun care about it liao lor...

now slowlyl resuming to an almost civilian life le cos i only need to go for 2 days stay-in followed by a 8-5 then have a off-day. for now got more time to go learn new stuff and also catch up with old friends...

whew... finally can get a chance to visit my blog again... OJT is indeed very very (muz emphaise that it is very different) from all the things we learnt from our FDC course...here the training is super shiong, cos we need to be trained at a higher level so that we can remain vigilant and always operationally ready at all times... had lots of training throughtout these few days, where we were confined to learn all we need to learn, thus cannot book out the last week... turnout rates were at a record high during this periods, and of course lots of tekan sessions too... nevertheless it's all over for now...

hmm... now we are stuck to our usual duties as RPs at the different bases, some of our good friends stayed, others posted out... quite sad in a way to see so many ppl leave changi... haiz but it all can't be prevented too... now heading for a new start at my new changi base (east) instead of (west). here the facilities much better than before and also quite slack in our duties...

today book out le but still dunno wat to do, so i better be off soon to find activites to do (if not they complain say i no life again) that's all for now...

POP lo... finally a full-fledged RP (after my 2 weeks On-Job Training is over). had a great parade on fri, all of us were high in spirits because all our efforts throughout the course had finally come to an end... this week is pretty busy... for we had to do lots of preparations for the parade. other than that we also had to attend our lessons on biochemical defence...

the wearing of theMopp 4 is tough, for it is completely sealed once we put on the mask... the most unique encounter would be the trip to the smoke chamber. the presence of the tear gas in our faces is a true test of our confidence. we had to do many exercises in the chamber like the canister changing drill. the best part would be to take off our masks in the chamber and shout our rank, name, ic number... most of us ended up crying outside...

we had our first (and most probably the last) platoon outing at sentosa yesterday... went to sunset bay to play beach volleyball... went kayaking too since we paid big bucks to get the tickets... had lots of fun playing catching in our kayaks, playing beach volleys with the noobs... the only drawback was the bad weather...CAT 1 weather most of the time... nevertheless, we still kenna sunburnt in the end...

after that, i went to jessie's 21st birthday... saw most of the ppl of the (long gone) haven study group... talked a lot about our army lives with the rest, and listened to exciting stories by vincent during his daily rountine patrol as a policeman in his neighbourhood... all the gruesome stories about death etc etc...

now still spending my last few days as a part time civilian during my block leave before i go back to camp for my new phase of training on wed... that's all for now.

this week super slack... not much happenings... spend most of my time slacking in the bunk listening to yes.93.3 fm, if not then sleep cos CAT 1 (due to heavy rain)... the only thing impt would be the armed drills conducted by RSM for our passing out parade... if not nuthin else le...

sat is the most busy day of the week ba... cos have to meet zhiqin cos it's his 20th birthday... us (me, qin, xia, lin) went out to celebrate with him at toa payoh yesterday, but somehow we couldn't find anything meaningful to do... in the end we only went to eat there before we decided to go to cck to watch the maid... but no longer showing there le... thus we just slack and took tons of neoprints and perhaps photos from xia's digi cam... other than that, nothing else le...

tmr is the magic tournanment in our bunk le, organised by the usual organiser, me. just formed a new deck to play, but i guess confirm lose one cos super lousy... the rest of the platoon mates all pro one lor... but have a chance to see all the rare cards of the old editions... hmm... i guess that's all for now...

whether i'll stay or be posted out will soon be revealed next week when i pass out lor... hope they send me to sembawang camp...

finally... ex. Earthworm is over... let me see, left 2 more weeks to my pop le... can start packing my stuff from my overly crowded locker. this ex. earthworm is really the whole essence of the FDC, no wonder ppl say this course is super shiong, now i know why. most of us had rarely more than 7 hours of sleep for the whole exercise, which lasted about 4 days 3 night. we did lots of training during these few days, with most of the time used in our trench digging... all i could remember is that we dug and dug, without any faintest idea of when the command post will be completed. but most of us hang on through shere willpower.

i have been wondering why there is so little turnout since last month, as it is a policy to have turnout to keep ourselves alert and vigilant at all times. during ex. earthworm, i finally realised why. they had been storing all these plans for the ex. lor, super sian... almost every 2 hours got 1 turnout, and we were left extremely exhausted (both physically and mentally) cos there will always be some form of punishments everytime, and with the inclusion of 5Bx every morning and trench digging through the night, it is little wonder we were totally wore out...

but never the lest, it is over. now left with a couple of more activities before we can finally pass out as part of the field defence squadron in maintaining the security of our country (so cliche). hope that all's well that ends well ba... i look forward to the day we pass out... POP lol...